i seriously hate how i'm ignoring my blog. and i seriously hate (x2) how i say stuff like "i hate ignoring my blog" and i still keep ignoring my blog.

ok Balkeys cut that out, geez.

so first things first, i'm currently at school, in desperate need of the computer/lappy since the computer at home and my sis' laptop crashed. nice timing uh when i'm now rushing to do my major project. idiot. the other week Maii suggested that i use her school comp. so i headed down to Nafa, entered her class that's infected with hilarious bunch of people, and managed to do a decent illustration of a logo. thanks for that impromptu help babe!

right, so 3 days ago, there was a Riot! at the indoor stadium! haha it's Paramore baby and they kickass!! sadly they didn't play My Heart. at least they played Pressure, so i guess that's cool. and they didn't cover much songs from the first album either.. not that i'm complaining, but for the sake of some of us who've been wiating for them to come for like, 5 years since their first album, they ought to, y'know. but still it's really ok, at least they played most of the songs i had hope they would. :D anyway the band sounded just like in their CD, or even better, and i'm pinning my hope on their return when Hayley said they'll be back here in less than 5 years. so i decided to tag along with my sis and her friends, and we were pretty late by the time we got there. while walking to the end of the queue, i bumped into Ayu which i was kind of surprised to see her coz i knew she was supposed to be with Maii and the rest. so we chatted for a bit, then i lost my sis and her friends and so i queued with her instead. we queued for a goddamn 2 hours. it was freaking frustrating la, my poor ass. Ayu was funny when she got hungry. hahaha. that poor boy.

once we got in, the both of us separated as i reunited with my sis and her friends. the crowd was ridiculous, in a bad way. pushing when they dont have to. anyway i find that the opening band Monochrome, was not too bad; although it seemed like many people are against them. well moving on, after Monochrome's set, the sound check for Paramore took like, what, close to 30 mins? my sis' friend Mon, and the rest of them decidedto head out to the back, like out of the crowd where there were space so we all can jump and dance around to. sis and i stuck around in the crowd for a bit, thinking we'd make a move behind the crowd after the first song. but my sis gave that idea up so the two of us headed out and boy, i never regretted that decision still. the view was awesome--though we weren't close to the band--and we definitely did get our own private space. i mean, if we were still in the crowd, we were actually at the quarter back. couldn't see the band AT ALL i swear. so eventhough we were out of the crowd, we could at least see the band and had the helluva fun time, ever. and hence i'd like to take this opportunity to thank my dearest sister Huda for giving me the Paramore tix as my 22nd birthday present! :D

now, putting all the excitement aside, the Dearest had already took off for his NS yesterday. :( gosh, it does feel different. ok he'd actually book out this Friday, so it's actually just 3 days away, right? so it's not much diff since i normally see him on Fridays and weekends before he went for NS. but for some reason, it's just different. it's something i can't actually put my finger to. anyway, he has some doubts.. well i don't. so, you have nothing to be worried about babe. :)

oh yeah, i am soooo happy that i'm done paying for my school fee! come next month's pay, i can use/save my money for the major project and hopefully i have sufficient left to buy some of the necessary things like my compact maybe contacts as well (haha mcm bimbo?) apparels apparels, maybe a pair of high-cuts as well ooohhhh my god step byk duit belen je. but i'm guessing i might prolly rush down to HMV and grab a copy of Artwork by The Used! hahaha of all things. -.-" but frankly, it has never taken me this long whenever their new album came out. the previous album took me like.. at most 2 weeks? oh yah, i should save a lot more than i spend in case anymore bands coming. sigh, Anberlin better get their ass back here quick. but NOT for Baybeats again eh pls.

currently, some part of me wishes time would move slower, so i can have more time to work on my project. but at the same time, i wish it'd move faster so i can graduate, move on to Year 2 or maybe start working full-time. the number's now stagnant at 22, but i'm sure as hell it's not coming down. so i can't waste anymore time. i have a mother who wishes to take the risk and quit her job and rest once i've worked full-time. sigh. i wish i was smarter when i was much younger. maybe when i was still in pri school? then i could've gotten to the Express stream in sec school, be a semi-genius kid who scores A's for her O-level and maybe then i might be eligible to get a scholarship to Nafa/LaSalle and who knows, by now i could have already gotten a full-time job as an editorial designer or an Ar Director? or somewhere within that range. sigh, regrets regrets regrets.