i am so relieved now that the Corporate Idenity assignment is finally done! i think - no i mean, positive - i'm positive that that was the particular module i spent lots of moolahs on just printing and reprinting my work into perfection. or almost to perfection. i was kind of sceptical of my own work when i presented it last Wednsesday coz i was afraid no one could understand or maybe accept my work in the way i had pictured it to be. but in the end, the feedback i got from Anthon was a good and once the class had presented, he concluded that all of us passed. he didn't tell us our grades of course coz he still needs to analyse our work without our presence. well i know i can ace this, i just hope i ace this the way i want it to.

the new modules coming are predicted to be double the work, double the stress, double the problem and definitely doublemyfearofmoneytrouble how horrible horrible horrible!! Packaging Design is the module coming up and Anthon said there was once a student who spent to about $200 on his/her Packaging Design project. i tell you ah, my jaw almost literally dropped flat to the ground and my eyes might have popped right out of the sockets and all i could hear was myself complaining of money problem. sigh. i'm not even sure if i can pay for my school fees fully starting December onwards. sighh.

and you know what, my mom just told me something heartbreaking last night. bottom line is, my family's bound to face with financial crisis sooner or later. she barely has 1K with her now. so how the hell is my family going to survive, what with my mom and dad's (him especially) medical expenses, household bills, et cetera? i really wish there was more i could help, to earn more income. working at the zoo is barely enough for me to support myself with my school fees and buying materials for school assignments. however, i have been thinking of ways to earn some cash. and all that i could ever thought of is to submit my work (if i ever start doing 'em) to this local website for tshirt design. say, if my work's selected, i'll get like the winning prize: some hundred dollars, i forgot. then they'll print my design on the tshirt, sell it up online, and for every piece of my shirt sold, i'll get a commission. that seems like an easy way out but it might take a while..

a long while actually. coz recently, Eva, the school's education manager (she's been helping me to get into internships) has been pestering me (in a good way) to update my website with new works. the latest buzz here is, there's this company (which i don't even know who/what) requested Eva to view my protfolio/website. but Eva has yet to accept the request UNLESS i upload some new work. daaaammnn. i've been struggling like hell doing Corporate Identity, barely had a break for myself, and now that the module has ended and i can now have a few days of rest until the new module starts, i still have to squeeze whatever brain juice i have remaining, thinking of what i should upload and what else i can create. man it's weird how i feel like i'm always "exercising" my brain all the time and yet i can be so gullible and legong most of the time. geez. my brain is so cluttered.

paranoia aside, yesterday was.. different. idk, maybe coz last night was a very simple day out with the usual 2 couples. lepak, dinner, movie. such a ridiculously idiotic and humorous movie that you are BOUND to crack up, no matter how many "wtf?!" reactions you give. hahahaha! Lesbian Vampire Killers - and it's in British too!

hmm now look at the date. i hate it when every end of the month is drawing near as it's a sign of time passing by fast. but yet i kind of look forward to the coming of the next month due to pay day. huhu. oh how typical!

k now i feel like my body's heating up. i've been wanting to hit the bed mattress while i was halfway through typing all these. well, till then suckas.