today marks the 7th day of the fasting month, and i still don't feel like it is. normally i'd feel good during this month, like whenever it's time to break fast with the family, i'd look forward to set the table and enjoy the meal together. then coming the 2nd week of the fasting month, my mom, my sister and myself would prolly start making raya treats and cookies. and all the more excited i got as Hari Raya draws near.

but such emotions were not present since day one. even if the food looks appetizing on the table, it's like.. meh. i guess part of the reason why this year's Ramadhan feels different is due to the fact of my family's situation. or more to my dad's condition, to be precise. it's like no matter how good things get at home, at the back of your mind will always have this vision of your dad needing help and stuff. and by that, you can't quite have a peace of mind. and mind you, i'm not the only one feeling the same thing around here yea. sigh.

the other day at school, Adrian, the deputy head of school, asked if i'd like to be interviewed by an ITE magazine regarding my decision to join CMA (i shan't tell you the name of the mag, in case this doesn't work out, huhu). me being the only current student from ITE, Adrian asked for my help about it since the magazine wanted to interview a student who was from ITE so they can relate my story with the current ITE students. haha. i find it funny in a way, coz i've never been interviewed for things like this. but i gave him the green light and now i'm having a hard time answering the questions which Adrian had emailed me. i'm very long-winded you see and i'm afraid my answers are irrelevant. heh.

anyway, bumped into some familiar faces last night at Baybeats, two of them being Zulfadli who keeps battling my band at Rock Legends ( -.- ) and Nisa who looks a tad taller now! hehe. well speaking of Baybeats, i could barely control my excitement now just thinking that i'll be seeing Anberlin tomorrow!!! their first set starts at 3.45pm and my shift will end at 3. and i'm reaaaalllyyy hoping i'd do my closing quick like last Thursday (i took only 15mins!! i broke my record!!) so i can make it on time for their first set! :D

school's been manageable so far, but i just hate this current module. it's all about creative presentation and stuff and oh how i hate classes like this. our assignment for this class requires a lot of research and understanding and... ergh i better get to it since i have the time now.

adios.