It was Spring, but it was Summer I wanted ~
The warm days and the great outdoors.
It was Summer, but it was Autumn I wanted ~
The colourful leaves and the cool dry air.
It was Autumn, but it was Winter I wanted ~
The beautiful snow and and the joy of the holiday season.
It was Winter, but it was Spring I wanted ~
The warmth and the blossoming of nature.

I was a child, but it was adulthood I wanted ~
The freedom and the respect.
I was 20, but it was 30 I wanted ~
To be mature and sophisticated.
I was middle-aged, but it was 20 I wanted ~
The presence of mind, without the limitations.
Then my life was over, and I never got what I wanted.

- Jason Lehman
in the previous post, i mentioned about Michelle offering me an internship to design webs and print materials. just when i thought she assumed that i i'm not interested in the offer, came a phonecall from the school's manager, offering me the same thing. she elaborated that it'd be for only 2 months, coz the school will be having some campaign thingy so they need people to work on the designs and stuff.

they assured me that the working hours for the internship won't clash with my classes and i've already made clear to them of my working days at the zoo. i don't know how or where all these will lead to coz i'm seriously considering the internship. like i said, i'll be exposing myself into an early start in this industry lei! but the cons are: can i cope with my school assignments? will i wear myself out after taking care of my dad for the entire night? will the internship somehow clash with my working time at the zoo somewhere along the way? sigh, why must all the great things come now when i'm already tied up with other things? this is awfully exciting. this is also worrysome..

this is what you call: dilemma.