i really don't think you're putting up an act just to get our attention. but why must you freeze up after a step taken? you remain motionless, expecting an automated rescue. i do want to help, but every step forward i take to lend you a hand, is a step backward to your independence. you're not supposed to be used to too much of external help, instead, you should be used to DIYs because you're the one who have to get the big prize at the end of the day. i am only there to instruct and encourage, and only give the help when very very necessary. not trying to be mean, not trying to be selfish, but all this boils down to your willingness for success. you seem to be deteriorating; buck up now.
p/s: i hate it when you have to go to the toilet. it's the saddest thing to see.
xoxo,
B
currently, i want #1 Wacom's Bamboo Fun drawing tablet. #2 a plain white long t-shirt (sleeveless). #3 a new haircut. #4 a new pair of slippers/not-so-girly sandals. #5 a high-cut sneakers/covered footwear (Lucky 13 Mary Jane).
currently, i need #1 patience. #2 a part-time job. #3 another 6 hours of sleep. #4 create a website (to kill time and boredom) #5 more patience.
so basically, my needs are very time-consuming if you'd noticed. oh and i'd just realised they're listed in order of duration too. anyway, remember one of my previous entries about the sudden change of wind? well yesterday, when we met the rest of Goat at town, Apit said that the incident was a sign of another potential tsunami. eek! and then i remembered about what my sister's friend had told her about a tsunami that's possibly to happen before or after the 22nd of May. eek! ×2 i'm not sure how reliable these sources are but to recall how shit scary the wind was, it could very well be true.
yesterday we walked aimlessly around town. chilled at Youth Park while waiting for Goat to arrive. the last time all of us were there, we witnessed a bunch of individual fat worms crawling across the tiled floor. and when i say a bunch, it was actually quite a lot! so last night, before Goat came, i "attracted" two worms. one was stuck to my WHITE top which now has a brown mark near the neckline, and another one was such a fatass stuck on my thigh! i was sitting with my knees up touching my chin, when i thought there was an ant crawling on my thigh. i brushed it off with my hands and felt a cold, squishy, gummy bear-like texture against my skin. when i looked down to see what it was i nearly jumped out of my seat and i practically flung the worm down next to me hahaha! -___-" and it's not helping that i was wearing some sort of hotpants. bleagh.
speaking of which, emil wore about the same thing too. hehe. over 2 weeks (i think) of not seeing her! and everyone else of course. guess i'll be seeing her and more of the people i know and don't know next Friday during her birthday chalet party. boy, i cannot imagine how many people will be there. i mean, eventhough i was told of the estimated number of people expected to come, it's still unbelievable! lol.
so. among us Goat, Dear and i (since we're a couple) are the only ones bike-less. everyone was pestering him to get his quick. haha. if the old times Dear was whining about how he can't wait to get his license, now he's harping about how he wished he has a bike now so the both of us could venture out to try different food complexes, join Goat for an adventure to explore abandon places, and best of all, to be able to go home a wee bit later than usual and not having to worry about missing the last train home. hohoho! and me? well, i don't really mind.. well except for the 3rd one. lol.
alright, while job-hunting is such a disappointment, i've found a way to kill the time (although i won't be earning any cash out of this) by creating a website for my portfolio. now that should be able to get me engrossed with something exciting while killing another 2 weeks of unemployment and holidays. besides, i'm most likely to do it on Dreamweaver, and that will definitely bring back sweet memories in TP. hehe. well, i'm off to give it a kickstart now. toods!
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