omg i feel so restless right now. bosan to the max ah. like, i need to do something. go somewhere, outside the house and actually DO something. like school! man i can't wait for school to start. to kill another 3 weeks of "holidays" is so tiring, really. online job-hunting is proven not fruitful (so far) which means i might resort to manually look for part-time job at some retail outlet. it's better off that way i guess. at least i'd be out doing something.

earlier i tried to revamp the colour theme for my blog but my attention-span lasted for only 20 pathetic minutes. so i decided to not change anything at all, and turned my focus to YouTube for InDesign tutorials. now that din't even last for 5 minutes. coz i'd decided to get some excitement by doing something on Illustrator. but somehow after awhile i got annoyed, x-ed the program and decided to blog instead. man, what a fickle-minded journey.

but i guess another reason why i don't want to be cooped up in the house for too long is because.. i feel so sad seeing my dad's current state. no, not because i want to let go of my responsibilities as a daughter to take care of him but.. well.. it's just painful ah. it's so hard for him to lift his legs now, to walk. i really don't know what's going on with his body but if it's not getting better anytime soon, my sister might ask for my dad's appointment to be changed to an earlier date. well since this is the case, i know you'd go, "all the more you should stay at home!" yes, true indeed. but how i'm exactly feeling right now is like, i-don't-want-to-be-here-but-i-know-i-must sorta thing. sigh. dear god, please give him the strength to recover. quick.

that aside, did anybody notice the sudden change of wind last night? it was omg fucking scary la! i was at the balcony in my house, staring out the window, appreciating the cool breeze for that night when suddenly the huge tree in front of my house swayed like mad, its leaves got carried away with the wind and even the lamp post was slightly shaking side to side! i just stood there speechless while my sister was peering behind the blinds in our living room, noticing the sudden change too. leaves flying everywhere, some people in the streets quickened their pace and for once, i was actually expecting a tornado in the next 5 minutes. haha. pretty syiok uh the wind but it made me think if that was another stage to.. erm global warming? the earth's dysfunctional environmental problems? *shrugs* i immediately called Dear up coz he was at the void deck with Goat. he told me he noticed the change too (duh) and teased that i must be scared. then he told me to pray. uh.

anyway i thought the weather's gonna be a little bit friendlier today, after last night. but noooo it had to be a bitch again, haizxx.

alrighty. til then suckas.