i'll make a quick update while he's soundly asleep.

i never really expect anything on my birtdays; previous ones or in the future. not even presents, surprises, whatever. i don't quite see the need to. ok, just a simple birthday wish will suffice. but it's a little different this year. i do want to have a day out, in fact i want Saturday's plan which Dear had told me of, to carry on. i just want to step outside, free myself from the current family situation for awhile. i don't mind going home earlier than usual though. as long as i get to spend my one-day-late birthday with the Dearest.

but it seems unlikely now. Saturday; my mom will be working, and so will my sister. then who's gonna assist my dad the entire day? i really want to juggle these two things on Saturday, without having to sacrifice either one. as much as i hate the fact that i'll be turning 21 in about 12 hours' time, that doesn't mean i don't want to have a pleasant birthday. look, i really want Saturday to work out. but bear with me, i'll try to find a way. i don't want things to be any complicated than it already is.

and you know, my birthday falls on Friday the 13th. and i love it when that happens. people will always say, bad luck. but i never see it that way. but then, i'm beginning to think, this year's February's Friday the 13th might not be as good as the previous ones. 1) i'm still not fully recovered from this stupid cold, 2) birthday plan is in a haze, 3) my dad. i have one more day before the 13th comes. February's Friday, please find me a way to sort my plans out.

moving on, whatever you have in store for me on Saturday, i want to see it. i want to be there to see it. i want to be there and see it with you.

ily.