good gracious. 3 more days to school re-open and i have to say, my thought of it is a total opposite compared to when the school hols just started 2 weeks back. i'm really not in the mood for school work. just the company of fellow classmates maybe, but not the projects and brain-cracking shits and all that junk. i'm already used to this almost-fixed routine of making my way to the hospital by 11 in the morning every single day, and only to return home latest by 10pm. yes, it sure is quite a bore but hmm, i'm practically one myself. *shrugs* either that, or the thought of me having to be in this situation for a very long time has finally sank into my little brain and i've lost all motivation to loosen up and have fun. or at least try to.

idk why i'm so negative today. i'm prolly like this because (1) of this annoying tummy ache that comes and goes the entire day; aka making me withdraw silent-killing gas 24/7 and it's driving me insane, really. (2) i, somehow (and for the first time i might add) have this almost-major case of envy of Dear and his family for going away on a holiday to Malacca, Cameron Highlands and KL from this morning till Monday night. hrmph. yes, i know this is just a small matter but.... idk. the current family situation really made me think a lot about life. and health, of course.

for just one night, i wish to be someone else. not faking it, but to really be another kind of person i've created a couple of times in my imaginations. for just one night, i want to forget everything and be anything. for just one night, i want the pace of my heart, my mind, and my body in sync; calm and buoyant. as for tonight, i need to get some damn sleep and hopefully this bloody tummy ache will cease by tomorrow morning!! -___________-"

so.. asta la vista balls!


strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
silver moon's sparkling
...so kiss me