in my previous post, i mentioned about believing that things happen for a reason. i'm beginning to see the reason now. the reson is me; and my sister too, probably.

as i grow up, i'm beginning to see some gaps in between. on weekends, we usually come home late at night. and all the yelling and scolding is always credited to my mom, not my dad. now it seems like we had taken him for granted. we never really take into consideration regarding some stern advises or teguran he made for us, since we usually let it slip past our ears. sigh, stubborn ignorant kids. but it's not that we neglect him, we don't. our relationship is pretty much.. erm.. 1/4 less close than mom's. oh well idk. but seeing him like this sure feels like a stab in the heart.

but right now, i'm beginning to see that gap getting narrower and narrower. we visit him every single day at the hospital and not because we have to, but because we want to. like hellooo, he is our father. so i guess, this unfortunate event that befall on my dad, is to make us realise how we should appreaciate each other and work on that gap even if it feels like it's not such a big deal if we don't.

more reasons are building up in my head now and it all make sense, actually. sigh, another chunk of regrets added to my Regrets list.

you had some progress, or improvements i shall say. we're all so happy for you. you were able to communicate with us, although it was just words-mouthing and sketching, considering you can't verbalise. it is hard to figure out sometimes, i even wish i know someone who's excellent in lip-reading. you look much better too, day by day. but still, that doesn't mean you're free from pain, right? you did mention of some sores you're having too. ): but still, i see your determination to acknowledge those who came to visit you, coz you even used up all your energy to salam or kiss the hand of your father-in-law when i told you he was there. but that only goes to show you're recovering. i really hope you are.

and amidst your weak condition, i appreciate your effort for a peck on my cheek.
i'll see you in 3 hours.

alright, let's sidetrack for awhile. school's been relaxing so far. other than some class tests this week, Term Test will start next week and aaaahh i'll get paranoid i tell you! but considering the previous class tests which i've aced pretty well, that pretty much boost a little bit of confidence to do well for the Term Tests. so yeah. (:

i'm missing my boyfriend real bad. eventhough he lives just 10 minute-walk away, it's not the same. i hope i can have a date with you soon, just the two of us; if not for an entire day, a few hours will do. hence, i hope this Friday will work out. i just have to squeeze you in-between my visits to the hospital. ily, imy. (: