i'd be writing a meaningful speech right about now, but i'll save that for next month. but for what it's worth:-

never was there a time that i regret being with you, or being your girl for that matter. whatever i did for you, whatever you sacrificed for me, was all worth it. it's a sad thing that today, the 2nd of September, is stuck between the fasting month. otherwise, i could picture us outside, holding hands, cuddling ourselves in our sweaters and in each other's arms of course, due to the chilly weather. we'd also prolly be enjoying our dinner at.. McDonald's maybe. you pouring out peppers at the french fries, and me still struggling with my half-eaten McSpicy when you're almost done with your EVM. then we could've dropped by the Toy Musuem like we had planned last weekend and add that to our list of beautiful memories. aside from your annoying teases, our day will then end with sweet kisses.. and maybe some light pain on your shoulders. well.. if only. and next month.. i'm still not sure. it'd be the second day of Hari Raya - a very bad coincedence for our important year! *drops on the floor head-first*

but we'll figure something out.
Dear Azri, Happy 35th Monthsary. (:

---
i want to tell the truth to my parents. it is a challenge for me, it is also a challenge for them. the thing is, i don't have the guts. i can only picture their reaction if i told them the truth, and boy my visualisation is always so negative - so it's really not helping. some have told me to gather the courage and go for it, but.. ugh, screw it. this is excruciating. i think i need someone to drug my drink with truth serum so i can spill the beans to my parents without me realising it, i don't care. preferably by the end of this month. so.. anybody up for the job?



pfft, pathetic.