the mother of my former school mate from sec school, had just passed on some days back. i'm not attending the wake today though. well, i may not be that close with her, but i wish her to be strong in the future that is sure to change due to the loss of a loved one. i dare not imagine myself being in her shoes. because i've tried that many times before, and i'm very certain i'd bawl my eyes out visualising myself in her position. i've texted her last night to wish her my condolences, but there was no reply. and it's very unlikely that she'll be reading this coz i don't think it occurs to her that my blog here exists, but in case you somehow do, Branda, take care of yourself ya.

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on a random note, it still amazes me how a blocked nose can be runny at the same time. i hate how i have to brush off my nose with the back of my palm countlessly, leaving a streak of snots across it (ya lah i know got tissue but sick people supposed to be selekeh what). it gets worse when i'm lying on my bed trying to sleep. i can't breathe through my nose coz it's well damned blocked, and i can't quite breathe through my mouth either coz my throat is way dry and it gets worse if i breathe through it. i swear i'm depriving myself from sleep if this continues for the next week. ugh.

i shall not blame it on the shitcold weather though, even if i've a feeling that i'm falling sick because of last Saturday when i got caught in the slight rain. huhu. chilly weather has always been my fav, especially when it gets blizzard-ly cold coz that is when i get to whip out my favourite "winter jacket" that can only be worn in this kind of weathaaaaaaa.


hahaha sick sick still so vain. *dash underscore dash*