i always overlooked, overviewed, and i've now gone overboard. the more i stare at you, the more i read you and visit you countless times to justify myself, and the more i imagine how my future holds through you, the more i regret. and the more i regret, the more stupid i seem.

just one letter from you, and all hope is lost gone.

i'm almost certain now that dark clouds always linger and hover around my head. it went away for awhile though, but then it came back. and i'm beginning to think i'm the one who, unknowingly, draw them closer to myself.

now, whatever the future is in store for me, i hope i can embrace it with all my heart because i'm too drained to even entertain myself with this unsatisfaction that only brings back my paranoia. ugh.

i've always seen the glass as half full. and with these crazy assumptions forming up in my head, i really hope i won't change my mind to see the glass half empty. i really should slow down. i shouldn't be moving too fast like how i speak. hmph.

anyways, this insecurity is just temporary. i hope. in any case, it's not bf problem or anything. so you don't worry k Dear. you're the best. despite all those annoying things you always do that resulted in faint bruises on your shoulders from me, i love you. (: