have you ever gone through something that refrains you from being yourself? and you don't know how, or why it happened. it's like, it just does. as if you're driven to be in that kind of situtation. an unpleasant situation. something like you feel kind of distant from yourself and the people you love. or the person you love. you know that it's wrong coz it's obviously driving the other person crazy, in an annoying way. you can't seem to put your finger to the cause of this temporary change. some might say it could very well be a PMS, but you strongly believe it is not.

the thing is, i just feel restless lately. like i need to do something but i just can't figure out what. erm no, this isn't another 'teenage identity crisis' coz i guess i've long passed that. i'm just sick to the core of the corestest core of sitting at home, despite the fact that i can pass time doing the truckload of housechores. and i'm not sure if it's because i'm still jobless now. really, idk. there's a lot to think about when it comes to applying for a job. and since i said it's a lot, i'm not gonna list 'em out. sigh. but like i said, i don't think that's the cause. my paranoia for being jobless has died down a bit. i'm guessing it might resurface again, but i have a feeling that won't happen anytime soon.

i went over to Dear's place today coz he wanted to see the new digicam. and, well, i was being such a pain in the ass i guess. gah this is frustrating! damnit. i might have a problem, but i've no idea what. now that's the real problem.

go figure.



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