i hate it when dad returns home with a friend, unannounced. he should've called first, saying he's bringing someone home, so at least i can briefly get the house cleaned up and maybe change into something less.. selekeh. at home i'm only in shorts and tee and sometimes i'm maid-like (no offence), and sometimes i'll be lazing around watching TV, feeling anti-social and all.. when suddenly, ding-dong! here comes my dad with a guest. he just did that a while ago while i was trying to have my dinner in the kitchen. and he was calling out my name for idk how many times, when i've actually already answered him that many times. it's a good thing mom's not home yet, or else she's gonna freak to see the house in a mess especially when there's a guest around. =/

well, the house have been in a mess lately. thanks to me, yay. -_-" the newly washed clothes are not folded, the floor's unswept, the dirty laundry's unwashed, the dirty dishes.. well the dirty dishes are always washed actually coz that's my favourite chore. ha. but really, i've started procrastinating on some of the household chores when mom refused to give me anymore weekly allowance. -__- ok i know that's childish of me, to expect something in return when doing the necessary household chores. but how else am i supposed to earn some decent cash? i can always apply for retail jobs, or F&B's, but i want something different this time, and that kinda job requires a certain level of skills which i have yet to work on. right now i wish i was a man. garr! i see that guys can easily get temporary/freelance job as movers, or those kind of jobs that require physical strengths. whatever pay they get, it's definitely enough to survive for the weekend. well of course those aren't some stable job or whatever but it's good enough to buy some time while waiting for a new school intake or while hunting for a permanent job. sigh.

life is so restless, to wake up every morning not looking forward to anything exciting. i feel like going out everyday, somewhere far, with the need of taking the public transports. not going to shopping malls tho, coz that's just a place of evil temptations and i really don't need that right now. just to places with beautiful breeze and.. well anywhere interesting basically. it'd be great to have a camera along, but since i don't have any, storing the sights into my memory is good enough. o mundane.

i'm sorry that i'm starting to whine a lot. i hate to whine, but i don't think anyone can escape from that. and i'm beginning to sense traces of paranoia rising. urgh. i hate today. but i still love you handsome, mwah.



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