you know, everytime i try to prove my point and have something clever to say, it often backfires. and i managed to think of a good comeback only minutes after the argument is long settled. sigh. uhh Belle, being mentally slow and unprepared is like sooo your forté! duh!

now let's talk about forgive and forget. no screw that. let's talk about forgive and never forget. hmm, cliché much? well i think it's perfectly rational for anyone to do that. say, two people got into a major argument, over and over again. Person One in the end accepted the apology of Person Two (who was responsible of a huge mistake), but Person One can never get that memorable mistake out of his head, ever. and Person Two understands that, coz it's only fair. so Person Two keeps trying to gain that trust back, though Person Two clearly knows that it ain't gonna work. so how? well all i can say is, Person Two has lotsa guilt hangin around wherever he/she goes..

and talking about apologies, sometimes i think the word sorry itself, is overrated. but it IS much needed, nonetheless. i hate the fact that we humans, even those with just little ego, will still repeat the same (or about the same) mistake, intentionally or not, after apologising. it not only hurts the person whome we apologised to, but it also hurt us ourselves. and that applies to me.. not that i repeat the same mistake (i think) but some mistakes i made caused an equally bad impact to that other person. it's also really hard to redeem myself and shield myself from being suspected of doing my previous mistakes, when that person whom i've been trying to prove to, is the only person in the world who fits the missing pieces in my life.

oh well.. these are just some random thoughts which i usually ponder on whenever i feel dejected.. which will then lead me to thinking so many negative things, which will also make me start to get upset just because i think too much. haha. well.. after all, i am the girl with paranoia riding on her back..

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alright. enough with the self-reflection. was watching American Idol earlier and Jason got the boot. i think at this stage, he deserves it. haha gosh i sound mean coz Jason is actually quite good.. but i think he should'nt have joined AI, since he doesn't look like those typical AI-ers. he should've just put up a video on Myspace or YouTube of him singing and get the fame from there. haha. and i'm rooting for David Cook, hell yeah! lol. i never thought i'd get so engrossed watching AI this season coz i think i've stopped catching up with the show since.. idk. but long ago ah i think. ok, go Cook!



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