a lot of thinking, a lot of contemplating, and my conclusion is still a blur and unclear. as i said, i do not want to waste approx 5-6 months of this non-schooling period. looking for a job is hard enough, which led me to considering taking up a course for Certificate in Pre-school Teaching (CPT). part-time courses for that in most private schools are around 5 months, which is just perfect coz the timing for me to apply for Poly next year is just right. but after realising that there are written exams for such a course (well duh), it got me thinking harder. if let's say i fail the exam for the first time, i can do a re-take. and if i flunk again in that re-take, i have to repeat the entire module. sucky. hmm. repeating the entire module may take maybe a month? and i don't want to risk that simlply because i'm afraid i might not make it in time to apply for Poly. well of course i'm not hoping to fail, but in the paranoia state i'm in right now, i have to think of the worst. this is all so confusing, i know. if i was a cartoon, my head would've just burst.

currently, i'm thinking of bailing on the idea of taking up CPT. i mean, it's only a 5-month course. if i don't get into Poly again next year (choychoychoychoychoy), then i'll take up CPT. so.. for the time being maybe i'll just keep looking for a job that suits my need/interest/qualification. and that includes working at child care centres, you know, taking care of the kids. it may be tough, it may not. but it definitely beats rotting at home and just feel sorry for yourself. or myself for that matter. well. looks like it's back to hitting the papers in the Recruit section..

Dear: eh tadi pagi ujan lebat giler eh.
Me: eh? entah. i bangon je kat luar dah basah.
Dear: abeh i mimpi org tepok tangan. i bangon rupenye bunyi ujan.

haha. i thought that's funny. :D
oh yeahhh my sister's going KL for Comeback Kid. i don't think i can go though. well even if i could, i'm not going there for CBK. i'm going there for Love Me Butch! but then again, no point wishful thinking.



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