first question of the day: if you've been in a relationship for over 2 years, and you're still so madly in love with your bf/gf, and you were given the option to lose your bf/gf, would you have it in a situation whereby you'll lose 'em to their death, or to just simply break-up with 'em?

and just for the record (esp to my dear boifey coz i know he'll tense up a bit reading this, haha), i have no bloody intention of letting him go, but i'll just have to bring this matter up, to share this horrible dream nightmare i had last night.

first of all, the nightmare was very complicated. it's like the kind of nightmare whereby you're in this location for the first minute, and be transported to another different location the next minute. but one place that i can vividly recall was, we were with our friends, which surprisingly, most of them were Junie's friends (except that Junie wasn't there o.O), and the usual Jurong peeps. we were like lost somewhere in a jungle, when we finally found ourselves in the middle of an occasion the natives (of the jungle) were having. it involved dancing in a lake nearby. they were friendly, and insist us to get in the water and just splash around. 2 of Junie's friends went in. i was supposed to, but i refused so Eunice replaced me. then Dear jumped in and they all were having fun - when suddenly a bunch of crocodiles surfaced from the water and everything was so chaotic i had no idea what happened to them. that was when my dream transported me to another location - which, of all places, school. -_- there, i received the bad news that Dear was gone, like, dead gone. immediately i broke down, brawled for his loss. then i just cried more, and harder, and even if it was just a dream, i could practically feel my tears gushed out so fast like waterfalls, when i realised i can no longer see him face-to-face or in person, or hear his voice anymore, or to just simply hold his hands. that's when i realised i'd rather we break-up than to lose him to the 'Angel of Death'. idk. it's just so scary and unexpected.

and talking about unexpected, Dear received a letter regarding National Service (and let's snap back to reality, coz this part of my story isn't about nightmares anymore). they've asked him to serve his NS already, which starts this freakin' April! he said he'll be deferring again, since he's considering of continuing his studies first. but still, yesterday, i could tell his mind was raging with questions of whether to continue with his studies first, or complete his NS. if he serves the country first, then he might just have a better chance of getting accepted at the Sinagpore Zoo as a career (coz the SG Zoo requires their male employees-to-be to complete their NS). well that's his theory, and ambition, and i am very proud of it. but i'd rather he finish his studies first, then do his NS. why? because a) when he's done with NS, he'll have enough education certs to produce when he go look for a job later, and b) coz i'm not freakin' ready for his departure to Tekong, damnit! oh the horror. if he should be mentally prepared for NS, his gf should too, you know.

but i think he's made up his mind to defer for the last time. oh thank god.

oh yes, yesterday marked our 2yrs 4mths anniversary! :D
i wonder how many months advance have Emil and Khairil reached, since theirs and ours are just about few months difference. well, have a jolly good day to all you lovebirds. remember, no matter how many ups and downs you encounter, always count the ups ones coz the number's always better.

HAHAHA MCM PAHAM!



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