can you believe this - it took me till ard 5.30pm to finally finish up my previous entry? wahcow, started the entry at 3.30, but only got it all done almost 2hrs later. haha. it's all the video fault lah. errors errors.

& i feel like doing another entry again.
earlier over the phone, Dear advised me to take up Networking when i get to 2nd year next year. yeah, i gotta choose between Multimedia & Networking. of course i prefer Networking. you can create & modify images & be creative. thats why i wannna lay my hands on Adobe Photoshop so much. but realitycheck; i'd have a better job opportunity if i take up Networking. most of the things these days evolve ard technology. in a sense that people would invent/modify/fix stuff that involves electronics/technology. & i have to consider all of this since im already in Info-Tech. but i barely make it in Networking class. even if Mr Chester has taken over our Networking class (& he's a good teacher), it's too late to build up my interest in Networking coz i know im already falling behind in his class. geez.

& Dear wants me to take up Networking next year coz i know he wants the best for me when i have to start looking for a job later & i want the best for me too. but boy, best things really dont come easy. & it definitely doesnt take a genius to figure that out. i guess i do have certain understandings in Networking class.. but i bet it wont do me any good when i am put in a working environment later.

so how the hell am i supposed to go through my attachment in idk-how-many-months frm now?

as for Multimedia.. i know i have the interest at it so i suppose i'd give extra attention to it if i pick it next year, no matter how boring or a struggle it may be. but the bottomline is, how many job opportunities would i get later? that is all that matter most to me now. the job i would get. coz in my opinion, there are more job opportunities for Networking than Multimedia. unless you have a different opinion on that, i'll drown myself in this dilemma until i make my decision.

wouldnt it be nice if i have a better, longer attention span so i wouldnt get myself into this mess? being less fickle would help too. i dont mind hurting my head till all my brain juices starts streaming out of my thick cracking skull, as long as it's worth it in the end.

like, really.

it gets worse if i think of all these stuff when im by myself at home or wherever, & cry after that coz i get too worried of the future. i bet you people have gone through that. so much for Back To The Future, huh. lol. but what to do. life's like that. i can only hope, & work for the better, right?



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