they say, as you grow older, you tend to get a bit more wiser, slowly learning & accepting the little gifts & hardships in life. at the same time, expanding your circle of friends. however, it seems to me that being a kid, & i mean little innocent decent nonsense cute adorable kid, is way better at making friends. in a way lah. sure it wont even occur to them that fights & misunderstandings can easily break out between one another, but ususally, hatred wont linger ard them as much as when we're older.

to me as you grow, getting your social life right & moulding it to how you want it to be, is actually more challenging. different people have various characteristics that others would either hate, or like, or to some people, just make do with it. like me lah sometimes. but thats besides the point. it's lucky for some people who can converse with new people whom theyve just met, without feeling shy, or too conscious of how the conversation would turn out. while others, would think too much abt it & ended up not saying anything at all. ok, maybe just a word or two. now thats how i was am. but then again, im a late bloomer, so only now i am comfortable being in my own skin ard other people.

but but but, my point is, no matter at what age you are, or what stage of your life youre at, you'd realise this: close friends, or just good friends, would drift away frm you, be it with a good reason or not, like too busy with school, work, other friends, etc. thats sad for sure, for me. & i guess this stage of my life isnt gonna end any soon. idk why i feel like this sometimes, but just hearing such similar stories frm others make me think, thus feel this way. & this sucks big time.

however, knowing that you have one true friend who will always stick by you no matter what, is already another god's special gift. big love to the Dearest, & fellow friends/classmates whove been there. :]

i know ive done wrong to some friends in the past, but what goes ard comes ard, right? i just hope that if the shits i'd dumped at some people were to be flying back at me, i'd be able to take it all with endurance & of full acceptance.

karma. it's a crazy thing.

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raye outing with fellow classmates was fun. :D my house was the first, & they got lost on the way here. lol. next was Dear's place, & Lydia cant help being amazed at how young Dear's mom is. trust me, i got just the exact impression of his mom when i first met her. haha. next stop was Lydia's. otw there in the train, was hilarious. hahahaha. remember that dude sitting & covering his eyes & prolly went astaghfirullahal'azim? lol kekek dok. & Nurul gave us nicknames. haha. anyway at Lydia's, got chicken wings!! ktrg ape lagi, bedal lah. mee pon best, ape taknye. Zul's place was next, parents werent home, but duit raye tetap masok, yay. lol. following houses were saiful's & ryan's, where we got our group photo printed out right there & then. azman's place was the last. Dear got a handful of the japanese chicken nuggets. ala with the seaweed wrapped that one lah. made our way home ard 10, i think. too tired already by then..

& the secondary sch mates just cant seem to make up our minds on when to go raye! syawal dah nk habis! haha.

here's something interesting i got thru email:
it's about the 9/11 plane crash.
you see Q33 NY as a normal NY flight number,
in a normal font face, with a normal font size.
but change the font face to Wingdings, with font size 48.
you'll get this:
Q33NY

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