so the trip to the doctor tmr was brought forward to today. coz i got so worried abt my condition already & Dear suggested that we might as well do it as early as possible. so skipped school, & reached polyclinic at ard 8am, & whoa the queue was already so long. singaporeans damn kiasu i tell you. well at least it's for the right reasons. unlike during the time when Hello Kitty was in high demand. -_-"

ok honestly speaking, this little condition that i'd been talking abt, is abt my ear lobes. i think i was infected with something, & that caused my ear lobes to be all itchy. then colourless liquid start to.. erm. stream out? something like that. & i guess over the night while i was sleeping, this liquid kept coming out, & i assume that the liquid hardens, & thus form an external layer. ive peeled off this layer eversince i was aware of it, but the more i peel, the worse it got. like the whole process started again, the liquid & all. plus, it hurts too. so i dont see the point of peeling it all day in & day out, & have to go through the same feeling over & over. so then i started to get worried excessively, & had this crazy idea of maybe my ears should be amputated, then that'd mean i'd have to lose my hearing & the worse bit is, i can no longer listen to melodic screamings in my mp4, AND not being able to hear Dear's voice anymroe. oh how dreadful. & how lame & pathetic of me to get so fucked up over slightest things like this. hahaha. but seriously, who the hell wants that to happen?

so the visit to the doctor went well. but the doctor i was assigned to, not the kind im comfortable with. i mean she looked very new to her career, & like blur2 also. i showed her my ear lobes but instead she stuck a medical instrument into my ear hole for ear wax. -_-" i had to straight-forwardly mention ear lobes & point to it, & then was she aware of it. the extrenal layers on my ear lobes were really obvious once i tuck my hair behind my ears. i still wonder why she dint notice it before. & she dint hear me well enough either. lol. but who cares. at least now i got the appropriate cream for my ear lobes & theyre looking sooo much better now! a few hours after i applied the cream, i managed to peel the layers off & it wasnt even a teeny bit painful. it's like i got a new set of ears. hahah. but it feels kinda rough. ohwell. im sure it'll be all better soon. :]

hmm, watching SI as im typing this. i think jasmine sounds fine. pretty good too. she's not that bad lah actually. just that i think she had a bad hair day today. it looked rather dry & frizzy, lol. or maybe it's because she crimped her hair? ahh. it doesnt matter. hady was ok. the vocals was good, but yeah, agrre with dick that he dint give his all. his 2nd performance was a disappointment tho. i think doing renditions of the modern pop singers with not so appealing vocals like justin timberlake, is not a good choice. but whatever. i just hope he'd make it to the next round. & that brings us to the College east student, joakim. it's surprising that all the judges thought he'd improved. he sounded the same to me. sometimes i see that he was 'trying too hard' during his performance(s). whatever lah. i just dont want him to make it to the next round. paul was erm. so-so i guess. but seemed out of breath at certain point. & jonathan's still doing great. still, i think it's time that the good vocals stay in, & the 'wrecked stereos' out. & Singaporeans should start saving their multiple withdrawal of 50cents for something thats obviously more worthwhile.

ok, shall not bitch ard anymore. will be going back to assumption tmr morning for a teachers' day performance. i suppose most of our classmates will be coming. im up to see everyone's new.. look? i just wonder how theyre all doing. ok, aku jumpe kau bsok ain chetti! :D



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music When The Sun Sleeps - Underoath