this weekend is gonna be a downright serious hardcore case of sadness. SADXCORE, i tell you. cos Dear will be off to KL with his family this friday all the way to freaking sunday. =[ meaning our initial plan of going together for the Baybeats 2006 at Esplanade this weekend wont be like how we planned. yes, Baybeats will be held on the same 3 days that he'll be away in KL. of course i dont blame him for going cos it's a family thing & i understand. though last year we'd gone together for Baybeats 2005 (even if it was only for a day), we werent a couple yet. so this year would be our first as a couple.im already very grateful enough that he'd come along tho the bands that im looking forward for (Ingride! A Vacant Affair!) dont really play the kind of music that he prefers, except for some indie bands & all. so yeah.. besides, im already so used to him being by my side all the time. sigh. oh but im not spoiled, stuff like that. just in case y'all are wondering. cos i realise what i'd said made me seem like one. heh. but anyway. maybe i'll go with my sis. or nisa. if she's going. but i cant possibly go with her & her bf & his friends.. cos.. i just cant. well i have a good reason for that but kinda personal. i think it's best that i go by myself. pretend like i dont know anyone there, like im a new kid in town or something. looking all confused, dorky, pushing my glasses up once in awhile everytime it slides down. haha. dork. XD but of course, thats not how it's gonna be. i'll prolly get a good scolding frm Dear when he finds out. he just doesnt want me to be by myself, for safety purposes. :] ♥ oh well. i'll manage anyways. for all i know, i am SO NOT gonna miss Ingride! =D
ok enough abt Baybeats & bands-crazy. Dear's class BBQ pit at East Coast last friday was awesome. i dint know i manage to break the ice among myself & his friends. i mean.. ive always been a shy person, the quiet type. well unless you know how im like as a person than i dont think you'd agree on me being the quiet type. but anyways. even when i was left alone with his friends when Dear went to the toilet, i dint exactly feel the awkwardness ard them - maybe because i was busy eating chicken wings? LOL. but nah. at least rizman's gf, nadia, was there. & some other girls that were there too. so everything was cool. Dear brought along his tent & our night in the tent was ok i guess. other than some fags playing Backstreet Boys & Boyzone late in the night. -_______-"
it was very chilling too. but when morning came, the morning sun was WHOA practically burning our skin away. well ok maybe thats a li'l exaggerating. but the sun was pointing directly at our tent. the rest of our friends' tents were nicely blocked by the trees, meaning theirs were in the shade. except for ours, of course. well. here are the pictures. not much tho. sadly. =[
damn, the pics just wont show!
& here are some pictures of his new baby hamster. no name for it yet.
moving on..
went back to AES to get my ever-so-disapoointing O-level cert back. the friendly mama kari security guard was still there. ^^ saw mr kumar in the office, but dint get to acknowledge him cos he was busy talking to a teacher. saw a few familiar faces of the students, but sadly, not even one that i was actually hoping to see. you know, like err.. my npcc cadets (gawd, im SO glad im outta there! XD) &.. berline!! omg i almost forgot abt her till now. & of course, alane. but dint bump into them at all, so Dear & i (he accompanied me) left after i got my cert.
went town after that. to get myself this hairclip that i'd been eye-ing on. unfortunately, it wasnt there anymore. damnit i was furious. well almost. ^^" so i bought another one that looks almost just like the one i wanted. we both had few extra cash left to spare & decided to catch Just My Luck at Lido. i always knew watching movies at Lido was like a yulk, but thank goodness it was on monday, only $7. besides, it's not like Just My Luck is the movie we've been dying to watch. so we dint really mind. tho i gotta admit, freaking sengket sia the theater. XD
ooh & heres my favourite part!! after the movie, we went Forum's Toys'R'Us then to Taka. we went to all these girly stores, that sell you know, those elegant dinner dresses & stuff. LMAO. i tried on these 2 tube dresses. OMG THEY WERE FUCKING BEAUTIFUL, I SWEAR. both the black & the greean&white one. gawwddd. well actually i was the one who suggested on trying on those clothes just for the fun. besides, Dear wanted to see me in a dress too, since i usually would wear pants & sneaks when i go out. so i had those on, & he said i looked beautiful in them. HAHA OK I KNOW IM BEING THICK SKIN HERE BUT THATS WHAT THE BF SAID HAHA.
but the best part's yet to come. after he saw me wearing the green&white tube dress, he cant stop day-dreaming abt me wearing that for the Dinner & Dance thingy, if our school organizes that. HAHA. & me, being the ever so regular day-dreamer be it night or day, joined in & yeah, i started getting excited over stuff that im not even sure would come true. the both of us were deciding on what shoe to match the dress, cos he decided on heels while i on wedges. & he'd be wearing a Fred Perry coat, etc. wahh!! im getting excited all over again! =D it's nice to be all girly once in a while. hehe.
so. i guess that was it then. ooh, im rather bummed that my Adobe Photoshop CS2 30-day trial is running out soon. tomorrow soon. geez. now i have to like go back to using HP Director & paint. how &$%#! is that. >=[
btw, almost forgot. Dear had this dream, about me leaving him for some other guy. =/ how i hate that dream. cos since then, he's been acting rather weird lately. not so weird lah, but he kept making me promise him not to leave him. & of course, i kept assuring him that i wont, cos i really wont. im so sorry that he had a dream like that. TWICE. sigh. im worried for him too. because of that dream, he hope i wouldnt go for Baybeats, cos he's afraid that i might like meet some other guy there & dump him. god, i love him soo much i wouldnt leave him! =[ i hope he wont be so worried thinking abt this when he goes for KL. i mean i dont want his vacation to be ruin his 'holiday mood' with his family because of this. all i can do is, prove to him that his dream is nothing but bull. i'll still be his once Baybeats is over. =]
ok. this has been a freaking long entry. hope i dont have too many typos; too lazy to check over lah. bye!
mood restless
music Dampened Spirit - Ingride
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