school supposedly ends at 4pm just now. but when mr adam gave us a 30min break frm 2:30-3:00, me, lyd & nurul cabot. haha. im not sure abt the rest tho. i thought today's multimedia (MME) class would be on photoshop. sadly mr adam taught us flash instead. ahh boring. but at least my Adobe Photoshop's now successfully downloaded! tho it's just a 30-day trial, at least it's something for me. im pretty much satisfied abt it. just that it lags a lot.. but still manageabale.

& during MME today, nurul had a conflict with saiful.. abt.. well it's very confusing, i got lost a little when she was telling us what happened. i still am actually, but i think i got a rough idea abt the whole situation. i kept myself numb when she told us what happened. well not completely numb & quiet lah, but seriously, when things like this happen, i'd be the one with the LEAST things to say. honest. cos im not the kind that can get angry at people easily. i'd normally just let things go & keep it to myself. to put it easily, i cant really be bothered. even if im angry at a certain person, it'd only be a short while. after some time, i'll find it pointless to you know, just sulk ard & stuff. thats me lah. unless it's abt something so freaking personal & sensitive then i might blow my top.

& when i said i dont get angry at people easily, i meant friends & other people. it's hard for me to hold grudges or be angry at them, but it's a different situation when it comes to my parents. i realise it's easier for me to hurt them, rebel them, show my anger to them compared to how i'd show them all to my friends. i know it seems wrong & prolly nonsensical, but thats how it is. i pity my parents, thats for sure. but.. sigh. im disappointed at myself sometimes for behaving that way. but it's teen angst. whats more worse than that? LOL.

anyway.. i hope we all (my classmates) can get along sooner or later.. i mean i dont want us coming to school, thinking like, "oh he's here, she's here, it'll be a dread having to see their faces everyday." i mean it's up to anyone who wants to think like that, it's just that.. i prefer to see all of us all happy & smiling without having any hatred in the heart. im just hoping things would turn out ok lah, even if there's still anger lurking somewhere..

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on a side note, Dear doesnt have to come to school starting next week, cos his course is done with this semester's test. good for him, but i pity him lah, insisting on sending me to school. & my schooling hours every tues to thurs starts at 8 in the freaking morning. kesian kan, time holiday pon kene bangon pagi2.. sigh. oh well. im still happy that i'll still have a lovely company to school - my MP4! haha no lah. of course i meant you lah azriiii! aka the bf. haha. ;) & maybe this sunday we, along with one of his friends, go apply for a job at Carrefour. money money money. -.-"



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music You Lost, Youre Crazy - Big D & The Kids Table