i have to admit, i cant forget what had happened that easy. every few times when im sitting alone at home or anywhere, my mind would start wandering abt stuff, & 'the incident' would be the first thing that creeped into my mind.

idk if she's thinking the same. idk if Dear thinks the same either. maybe he does, but im not sure how often. he msg-ed me last night. tho your msg could be half-true, i just cant bring myself to admit it to you. you're right when you said i dint show much feelings abt the incident, but thats because i dont want YOU to be worried, or uneasy or whatever it is if i tell you the truth. i dont mean to lie if you think i am. im just.. hiding it.

just like on the way home yesterday in the train, i cant help feeling a little bit down, just like how the weather was yesterday; pouring heavily as if the sky was crying & throwing tantrums. & i was listening to Hawk Nelson's 36 Days. sigh.

i just want to things to be like how it used to. when i still have the BOTH of you & not having to worry abt either of us drifting away any further from each other. i still ♥ you my Dear. i just dont know what to feel abt all these anymore.

im not sure when you get to read this entry, or my previous previous ones since you dont have internet connection at home. maybe you'll get to read this when school starts & you get to use the computer at school? well by then, i hope things would have already gone fine. well.. there's nothing wrong to have a hope like that right? ♥



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